If you are searching,
You must not stop until you find.
When you find, however,
You will become troubled.
Your confusion will give way to wonder.
In wonder you will reign over all things.
Your sovereignty will be your rest.
(Gospel of Thomas)
This so beautifully captures that confusion, doubt, frustration and resistance are such a normal part of walking away from an old, familiar way of being and doing into a new, uncharted and uncertain way. Think of it as growing pains, which happen because not all parts grow and open at the same time, causing tension and friction.
If you cultivate the practice of wonder that Thomas talks about, it will be like greasing the wheels of growth.